There is a difference between feeling the need to get out and feeling like you are meant to be elsewhere. My wanderlust is peculiarly strong today.
And why is it that traveling is such an esteemed novelty?
Clashing cultures, unfamiliar footsteps, fumbled words and timid stutters—The uncanny freedom found in the unknown and the faulty human heart that always wants.
We love the idea of traveling almost as much as traveling itself because it is romanticized.
We are so enraptured by the idea of treading on new land and refreshing ventures…to indulge in dreamy fantasies and to steep ourselves in serendipitous moments.
Because such moments make us forget how broke we are, the frustrations of getting lost and the struggles in accomplishing even the most simple of tasks.
Because such moments make us feel alive in the most real way.
Being in your twenties is the most contradictory stage of life.
As a twenty-something-year-old, our hearts want everything and anything and nothing.
We want freedom but we also want stability. We want to live and spend money but we also want to save. We want a special relationship but we also want independency.
Suddenly we find ourselves stuck in a deep, deep experimental mess of wanting, losing, wishing, hoping, wondering, breaking, falling and needing.
We become hooked on extremes as we try to find the balance of life. Too bored, too drunk, too tired, too lazy, too stressed, too broke…just too much of things.
We want to do everything and anything. So much so, that we often end up doing nothing by the simple overwhelming feeling of: What is the point?
We find ourselves in an awkward existence no longer children but neither adults, like toddlers learning to walk again. We now, fully feel the heavy weight of reality, rules, laws, bills and rationality while we still try to cling to times of carelessness, recklessness and fun in an unabashed mindless way.
We have never felt so alive but also never so lost and alone.
And we keep on searching, treading and digging for that person, career, event, experience or activity to give us the magnificent life-encompassing answer of
This is why I am here.
Ji Hyunjung, Stephanie Lee and kim Hansu by Shin Seonhye for Allure Korea Nov 2012